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Hello! It's me again! Y'know, the person who authors this blog. Yeah, that's right, the one who's never ...authoring things. Well, I popped up to author another post. Okay, I stop using author now.

So, I applied to graduate school. Yay! And aaaaaah! I'm excited, but nervous and very afraid that I'm going to get rejected. Not that there are any real, solid reasons that I'm worrying - it's just an overall kind of thing. Well, I guess there are reasons why I am having worries. The minimum GPA they would like you to enter with is 3.5, which I don't have. I, instead, have a 3.07. I also don't have many extracurriculars, especially any that have to do with my intended major. Their GRE average scores are 610 for verbal, 640 for quantitative, and 5.1 for analytical (aka writing.) I did well on the verbal (highest individual score was 690) and on the quantitative (highest ind. score was 750), but my analytical score was low. I took the GRE twice and got a 4.5 and a 4.0 (goes in increments of .5 with 6.0 being the highest.) I was hoping that my GRE scores would cancel out my lower GPA, but I still got a low analytical. So I don't know.

Today was the deadline for applications to be sent in and I am supposed to hear back by mid-November. I don't want to have to wait that long! It lets me think too much.

I do still have to turn in my certificate application, which isn't due until November 1st, but I plan on sending that this Saturday - when I have time to go to the post office.

I guess I should mention what school/major I am applying for. I applied for American University in Washington, D.C. I want to major in their MA in International Affairs concentrating in U.S. Foreign Policy. I also want to supplement my master's degree with a graduate certificate in Cross-Cultural Communications. I feel like this will make me an outstanding candidate for becoming a Foreign Service Officer and that I will feel more confident when I apply again. (I applied earlier this summer and took the computerized test, but missed the cut off for the next round by a few points. Sadness.)

But yeah, I'm nervous and uber-afraid that they are going to reject me. And then I'll be sad and not sure of what I'll do.

On a different, sad note, my cat, Neko, died on Sunday (or Saturday.) My parents apparently found him on the side of the road in front of our house - apparently hit by a car. I didn't find out until Monday, after work, when my mom told me. Still not totally sunk in yet - I keep expecting him to come in from being outside and meow at me to feed him or pay attention to him or something. But he won't. ;.; I'm going to miss him.

Venting

I needed some place to vent a little, so I figured I would do it here. Please ignore and excuse the following post.

I know that I'm not a very social person, but that doesn't mean I don't want to do anything ever. I even thought I had an ally in this, but apparently she's gone to the other side and has forgotten to bring me along with her. I have so many different emotions and thoughts just whirling through my head that I don't even know what to write.

I'm sorry I don't like to go out and drink. I realize that at least 75% of the social outings here include this. I'm sorry that I don't like to watch people drink. Truthfully, it gets old after a while. I'm sorry that I don't like a lot of Korean food. This makes me less adventerous than I could be. This also makes up most of the other 25% of social outings. I'm sorry I don't like to go shopping excessively, or continually return to stroll the same shopping areas. I don't find it that fun. I'm sorry I don't like to go to Seoul every weekend. Spending all that money to go there and paying to sleep on a floor seems like a waste. Not to mention it can be a tiring affair. I'm sorry my first week I amost never went out with you guys. I just wanted to savor the short time I would have to myself, without my 3 roommates. I'm sorry that I'm a quiet and passive person. Unless I'm explicitly invited, I'm not going to crash your gathering. I'm sorry if who I am or how I am makes me seem anti-social. I'm sorry if it makes you pass me over or forget to invite me.

But I can't change. Well, I can change. I could become more social, always going out with you guys wherever, but that's not me and that won't make me happy.

I get the impression that you don't dislike me, and may, in fact, like me a little. So, please, don't give up on me just yet. I will continue to say no, but there will always be the random yes that will be thrown in.

/end vent

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On a lighter note...

Rachael took these, so I decided I would, too.


My Personality

Neuroticism	49
Extraversion	52
Openness To Experience	66
Agreeableness	56
Conscientiousness	7

You are neither a subdued loner nor a jovial chatterbox. You enjoy time with others but also time alone. Stressful and frustrating situations can be upsetting to you, but you are generally able to get over these feelings and cope with these situations. A desire for tradition does not prevent you from trying new things. Your thinking is neither simple nor complex. To others you appear to be a well-educated person but not an intellectual. You have some concern with others' needs, and are generally pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You like to live for the moment and do what feels good now. Your work tends to be careless and disorganized.

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How Flor-i-duh are you? Your Result: Your a crazy Floridian. You have been in Florida long enough to know that it doesnt seem like it did on "vacation" and snowbirds and hurricanes are just part of your everyday life.
Your a damn yankee
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You are 69%* floridian!

You often find yourself getting road rage at "snowbirds" AKA old people from up north that do not know how to drive. You are also aggrevated by New Yorkers who b---- about everything.

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You Are 95% Floridian!

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How Florida Are You? Your Result: You are a pure Floridian You were probably born & raised in the sunshine state. I'm sure you know all about being soaked with reclaimed sprinkler water and have grown bored of evacuating constantly.
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So, I'm anti-American.

I am tired of people getting called "anti-American" for saying negative things about our country and disagreeing with the way in which it is being led. Tell me, please, how voicing my opinion is being "anti-American." I really want to know.

I have always been under the impression that in America we have the right to say whatever we think or believe. That we, in fact, hold this right as one of the most important and traditionally American rights one can have. I have always believed that one of the rights this country's forefathers made sure to establish in this new country, this new government, is the right to criticize our government without fear of persecution, like they had to deal with while under the rule of England. Please, correct me if I am wrong, because there is always that possibility.

What is anti-American about speaking out against actions and beliefs that you are against and that you think are wrong? What is anti-American about pointing out the faults of our government, which is supposed to be representing us, the people. What is anti-American about speaking your own opinion, whether it is right or wrong, persuasive or annoying? Please, enlighten me.

Yes, there are people who take advantage of this right. There are people who I /wish/ would shut up and leave their opinions at home. But I respect their right to voice their opinions and their thoughts. I might vocally disagree with them. I might ignore them. I might complain to someone else. But I don't reject their right to speak. They might make me sad or angry or shaking with a tumult of different emotions. But I don't physically react towards them.

I do not forsake their right to say these things. Because if I did, I would be allowing for this right to be trampled on, to be abolished. I would be forfeiting my own right to speak freely. I love and cherish my right to speak my mind and exercise it regularly. I do not want this right to be taken away. I do not want this right to be taken away from others.

I show my love and my patriotism for this country in many ways. One of them is to speak up on matters that I think need to be changed. This country is run by humans. It is not infallible. It is not 100% perfect. There are things that have been changed, that are being changed, and that need to be changed. Why is it anti-American to point these things out?

/end rant

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You are Mohair.You are a warm and fuzzy type who works well with others, doing your share without being too weighty. You can be stubborn and absolutely refuse to change your position once it is set, but that's okay since you are good at covering up your mistakes.
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Speaking

For someone with as voracious a reading appetite as me, it's amazing how bad with words I am. I have recently come to notice how bad at speaking I am. Specific words or phrases slip my mind and take forever to return. Words get mixed up. Pronunciation gets butchered. Sometimes I am amazed that I think I will actually be able to learn a foreign language fluently.